Posted by: Jessen on: June 24, 2009
I haven’t deleted anything, but I’ve made all my posts private while I reconsider how much of my personal life I want online.
Considering what I plan to do with my life, I think I need to do that.
I also want to reconsider the quality of my posts, I don’t think I am a spectacular writer, [...]
Posted by: Jessen on: June 24, 2009
What do I want to do with my life? There are two things I feel more passionate about than anything on earth. One is art, the other is saving children.
I think that after what I and what the children I grew up with have been through [severe abuse, psych wards, state "care"] it would be [...]
Posted by: Jessen on: June 22, 2009
This new found sense of ownership and responsibility is amazing. It’s something I’ve never experienced before, it’s seeing things in a way I’ve never seen them before.
I understand now, too, that the acceptance of free will, and ownership for your actions, is -essential- for personal growth. This is a major part of the reason I [...]
Posted by: Jessen on: June 21, 2009
Soon after writing my last two posts I fell asleep, and I had two distinct dreams, both involving horses. I think the last one I had is the most important.
It was very short, maybe only a few seconds. I was holding a photo of a horse foal. Except where the foal was in the picture [...]
Posted by: Jessen on: June 21, 2009
I am really prone to leaning on fate and destiny as an explanation for things, as much as it goes against everything else I believe in. I approached FDR with this, believing that I was somehow “destined” to find it, and therefor, I was “destined” to be a good and happy person. Really, I just [...]
Posted by: Jessen on: June 20, 2009
You’re not trying hard enough.
I am trying, I just don’t know what to do….
Bull shit! Yes you do. You did it before. You know exactly what to do!
You’re right…
You got given another chance and you messed up. Why?
I was afraid…
Of something real.
Yes…
I understand.
You were a prisoner of war.
People did horrible things to you. Unspeakable things.
Even [...]
Posted by: Jessen on: June 20, 2009
I’ve been reading about/watching demos of Gestalt Therapy. I really like the directness of it, and the RTR-like techniques, focusing on what is happening for the patient in the moment. I feel like that is what I need.
I can’t seem to find anyone in the CBD area who practices it though! Goolging “Gestalt Psychotherapy” or [...]
Posted by: Jessen on: June 19, 2009
I have been very prone to paranoia and magical thinking my entire life, or at least as long as I can remember.
As a very young child I was always convinced that paranormal beings could hurt me, especially at night. I hid under the covers to protect myself. I was terrified of the dark, and if [...]
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