I started floating philosophy trial balloons with this guy in class that I felt drawn to. I learned a while ago to discuss anarchistic ideas with individuals and not groups, because it’s such a contentious topic, if one person in a group disagrees the rest will side with them and dog-pile on you, and then it just becomes an excercise in  self flagellation. Despite the fact he is christian [I think] this guy seemed very receptive, so I would push things further and further.

We were having a discussion today about the Baby Bonus [in my country the government will pay you something like $15,000 to have a baby] and I pointed out that if the government didn’t STEAL half of the mother’s income, they wouldn’t NEED a baby bonus. He emphatically agreed, and I was wondering if I’d found someone I could discuss philosophy with, until a few minutes later he told me that when Obama was elected, he was so happy that he cried. I didn’t know what to say, so I kind of half-assedly said “I dunno, all politicians are the same” and we ended up talking about music or something.

When I got home, I felt pretty sad about it. I felt drawn to this guy and it was easy to talk to him and we agreed on a lot of things, but I actually felt hurt when said what he said about Obama, like he was shutting me down or something. Maybe I’m taking it too personally, i don’t know.